Depression

[Bjornebye]

@Creator Supreme Mate I'm really sorry to hear you're not feeling yourself mate. I can't add to the brilliant advice already given all I can say is you're great, people love and rely on you and you are allowed to be a bit more selfish when it comes to taking care of yourself.  

[Creator Supreme]

59 minutes ago, Bjornebye said:

@Creator Supreme Mate I'm really sorry to hear you're not feeling yourself mate. I can't add to the brilliant advice already given all I can say is you're great, people love and rely on you and you are allowed to be a bit more selfish when it comes to taking care of yourself.  

Cheers Stig!

[A Red]

@Creator Supreme I spent ages composing a pm for you only to be unable to send it as you're inbox is probably full so i've cut and pasted it below -

 

Pull yourself together.

 

Seriously, I hope you are over the worst and try to remember its only temporary and that you have people that love and need you.

[Creator Supreme]

1 hour ago, A Red said:

@Creator Supreme I spent ages composing a pm for you only to be unable to send it as you're inbox is probably full so i've cut and pasted it below -

 

Pull yourself together.

 

Seriously, I hope you are over the worst and try to remember its only temporary and that you have people that love and need you.

Thanks mate, I know we don't always see eye to eye, but it says a lot that you're willing to help in situations like this.

 

Stay safe. Must remember to clear my inbox, thanks for the reminder. 

[Creator Supreme]

Done it again, another fucking meltdown, ended in a screaming match with the wife. Now I either get help, or I move out, the self-destruction continues apace.

[Ezekiel 25:17]

7 minutes ago, Creator Supreme said:

Done it again, another fucking meltdown, ended in a screaming match with the wife. Now I either get help, or I move out, the self-destruction continues apace.

Your wife might need to consider her approach to this situation too mate, I don't know much but if she's screaming back she's not being as constructive and supportive as she can be, just a thought,  you're a couple, you work on it and sort it together.

[dockers_strike]

7 minutes ago, Creator Supreme said:

Done it again, another fucking meltdown, ended in a screaming match with the wife. Now I either get help, or I move out, the self-destruction continues apace.

Take care bud.

[Creator Supreme]

Just now, dockers_strike said:

Take care bud.

Thanks mate.

 

1 minute ago, Ezekiel 25:17 said:

Your wife might need to consider her approach to this situation too mate, I don't know much but if she's screaming back she's not being as constructive and supportive as she can be, just a thought,  you're a couple, you work on it and sort it together.

I think she's at the end of her tether with me kicking off mate, she's put up with a lot over the years from me, I think this is one meltdown too far!

[YorkshireRed]

11 minutes ago, Creator Supreme said:

Done it again, another fucking meltdown, ended in a screaming match with the wife. Now I either get help, or I move out, the self-destruction continues apace.

Take the help.

 

I don’t know you but, for many, that first step is the most difficult. If you can, try and get your wife to be involved in that. It might be beneficial for her to see and perhaps truly understand what’s causing your “meltdowns”, that they are a symptom of a serious illness, not who you are or maybe what she thinks you’ve become. 

 

Again, who am I to diagnose you on an Internet forum but I don’t think you’re going to fix this in your own. Maybe you know it as well. 
 

I hope you do get help and I hope you are patient with yourself if it takes a while to see genuine progress. Every journey starts with a single step. If posting about this on here is half a step, then please take that little extra half a step and reach out to someone qualified. 
 

There will be others on here who can completely relate. I hope you don’t feel this as pressure, but we are with you. We really are.

[Creator Supreme]

6 minutes ago, YorkshireRed said:

Take the help.

 

I don’t know you but, for many, that first step is the most difficult. If you can, try and get your wife to be involved in that. It might be beneficial for her to see and perhaps truly understand what’s causing your “meltdowns”, that they are a symptom of a serious illness, not who you are or maybe what she thinks you’ve become. 

 

Again, who am I to diagnose you on an Internet forum but I don’t think you’re going to fix this in your own. Maybe you know it as well. 
 

I hope you do get help and I hope you are patient with yourself if it takes a while to see genuine progress. Every journey starts with a single step. If posting about this on here is half a step, then please take that little extra half a step and reach out to someone qualified. 
 

There will be others on here who can completely relate. I hope you don’t feel this as pressure, but we are with you. We really are.

Thanks again mate.

[Elite]

You need to start being accountable for your actions mate before it's too late to fix things with your wife.

 

Get on medication if you aren't already and work out your triggers, even if that means you do move out because family life is the thing that's causing it.

 

Do the same shit over and over and you'll be forever stuck in a negative loop.

 

No matter your circumstances, believe me things can change for the better and you will adapt.

 

[tokyojoe]

19 minutes ago, Creator Supreme said:

Thanks again mate.

We are all with you mate. Get some help as soon as you can.

[M_B]

48 minutes ago, Creator Supreme said:

Done it again, another fucking meltdown, ended in a screaming match with the wife. Now I either get help, or I move out, the self-destruction continues apace.

I've been doing Psychotherapy (and a 12 step programme) for 3 years now and it has helped me immensely. In fact I love it now. Don't be afraid of getting help. Admittedly not everyone can afford Psychotherapy, but if you can then it is well worth the investment.

 

I don't know your story (are you addicted to anything?) but the pivotal point in my life was recognizing I would never get recovery by myself - I needed help.

[Ezekiel 25:17]

54 minutes ago, Creator Supreme said:

Thanks mate.

 

I think she's at the end of her tether with me kicking off mate, she's put up with a lot over the years from me, I think this is one meltdown too far!

You'll be able to push her way further I reckon,  that's my experience , not that that's a challenge  just that it's not too late to turn things around.

[Ezekiel 25:17]

My birds walking round in Tupac socks pulled right up over leggings, so we've all got our crosses to bear.

[Creator Supreme]

Thanks to all of you, you absolutely fantastic shower of bastards, stuff like this is why this place means the world.

[Stouffer]

We're all here for you pal. X

[Captain Willard]

1 hour ago, Creator Supreme said:

Thanks to all of you, you absolutely fantastic shower of bastards, stuff like this is why this place means the world.

Hang on in there. I find not drinking and lots of exercise helps but each to their own. Hope you're feeling better. 

[A Red]

Pull yourself together

[Captain Willard]

20 minutes ago, A Red said:

Pull yourself together

Doctor I feel like a set of curtains 

[Bjornebye]

2 hours ago, Ezekiel 25:17 said:

My birds walking round in Tupac socks pulled right up over leggings, so we've all got our crosses to bear.

 

[Bjornebye]

As has been said @Creator Supreme things will work out, you need to battle through the storm x Lifes a cunt but it isn't always this hard 

[A Red]

5 hours ago, A Red said:

Pull yourself together

I've been out for drinks and nibbles this evening and this has been on my mind, I hope @Creator Supreme has taken it in the spirit intended.

[KMD7]

Go get some help @Creator Supremeplease. You're loved here.  I think you're wife and family could also do with some counseling tbh as there seems to be a pressure cooker situation building in your house at the moment and you all need an outlet to vent and get some advice.  Take care my friend.

[Creator Supreme]

1 hour ago, A Red said:

I've been out for drinks and nibbles this evening and this has been on my mind, I hope @Creator Supreme has taken it in the spirit intended.

I did mate.