Suicide

[Rick Sanchez C-137]

If it's the anxiety, consider having a large drink, it slows down how fast your brain is processing shit, allows you to sort of rest if that makes sense? Just remember that regular use isn't wise as alcohol is also depressive. As a one off it should be alright though.

 

Good luck, and speak to someone. x

I'm scared to have a drink as my hangover on Sunday seems to have triggered this (although it had been building). But thanks.

[melons]

I'm scared to have a drink as my hangover on Sunday seems to have triggered this (although it had been building). But thanks.

 

 

Can you access youtube?

 

Can you pop on a clip and follow the relaxation techniques? It sounds lame, but they do work if you've got a little head space available. 

[Jairzinho]

Give ASMR a whirl, mate.

[Rick Sanchez C-137]

I've managed to escape it at bed times, so my daughters going to bed soon and I'll go straight after. If it follows me to bed I'll being my headphones and put some relaxation techniques on. She can tell there's something up as I'm usually much more happy and energetic. Just told her daddy has a headache.

[lifetime fan]

Not sure why I am writing here but been viewing this thread for a while and need to get things off my chest. I have always suffered from some form of depression and I have been taking anti-depressants for the last 10 years on and off (including for the last year). I had a massive breakdown on Saturday to the point where I couldn't stop crying and this scared the shit out of me as it has never been this bad. One of my good mates commited suicide on my birthday august 8th last year after we had a party so maybe this has brought things on. I spoke with my Ma and Da about this and they adivsed me to move in with them for a bit. I cant help but feel like a cunt as this is the last thing they need right now as my Da is going for surgery today. I have a good job and enjoy working and have just recently got a raise. I don't think talking to anyone will help as I cant explain myself what way I am feeling and why I am feeling this way.

I hope you're not an Aussie cricket fan.

[lifetime fan]

I think that was meant for the small pleasures thread.

What fucking wingnut negged that?

 

I take it you've never heard of dark humour? Or been in such a place the only thing that's kept you going is to make an inappropriate joke and to laugh, as if you didn't laugh you'd never stop crying.

[Section_31]

I would steer clear of both booze and kalms. I'd go for camomile tea until you see the doc.

[Anny Road]

I would steer clear of both booze and kalms. I'd go for camomile tea until you see the doc.

I agree with this. There is not a problem in the world that cannot be made worse with booze.

Once you start using it to self medicate it is a slippery slope trust me.

[Elite]

Yeah booze makes you feel 10x worse the day after.

 

Force yourself to do some exercise, it will take you out of "your head" if only for a bit.

[Champ]

I've managed to escape it at bed times, so my daughters going to bed soon and I'll go straight after. If it follows me to bed I'll being my headphones and put some relaxation techniques on. She can tell there's something up as I'm usually much more happy and energetic. Just told her daddy has a headache.

I'm on night shift tonight, mister, so will be checking in through the night if you want someone to chat to

[Adebisi]

Not been feeling too swell recently but wouldn\t say I was depressed even though I've got a lot of the symptoms. Feel like I'm drifting away from a lot of my better mates too. The majority of my friends are creative types but with that seems to come lots of self destruction and so they're still very much into their drugs and heavy drinking. I realised a while ago the drink wasn't doing my any good but would still mess about with drugs now and then. Should really stop the lot but it's hard when I'm around it almost every time I socialise. Not that any of my mates are pushers but it's hard to say no. I also seem to have become everyone's agony aunt and a lot of time spent with friends these days seems to lead to them just moaning at me about their lives, jobs and the like. It just makes me want to stay in. Before I'd be looking forward to finishing the working week and catching up with pals, now it feels like I'm always making excuses to do anything but.

My relationship with my family is still very poor. I was always kinda the black sheep but it wasn't until my dad died and I slipped into a deep depression that family life became pretty shit. I still feel a sense of shame and embarrassment that they, my mum in paticular, saw me so low and useless. My mum is 63 now and all I really wanna do is have a proper relationship with her as she's a fucking superstar and deserves to know it but I feel anxious and on the brink of tears anytime I go to tell her anything like that. I know I should probably just get it over with but it's hard. I can't remember exactly how long I spoke to various professionals about my depression but it was at least a couple of times a month for over a year, just like I can't remember 99% of the stuff we talked about in the sessions either, but I'm thinking of giving it another go. Should really do it sooner than lately but I put if off every week

Got in touch with an ex recently too. It's been two years now but there's still a lot of her shit at my mums' that I messaged her about collecting. I also really wanted to know how she was doing because she has had her fair share of rough patches from a very young age and is coming into the final year of her degree and I wanted to know how that was working out for her but she totally ignored all the personal stuff and we just discussed arranging a meet to exchange stuff. Bit of a bummer really.

[Sheeks]

Sorry it's been so long since I replied folks, first time been back on since my original post. Things are looking up a bit, one step at a time but I can honestly say ye have brought me to tears (in a good way) about how caring you all can be. I've only read the first page of responses and have had some incredible advice from everyone and had a good laugh too. thanks again

[Sheeks]

Not been feeling too swell recently but wouldn\t say I was depressed even though I've got a lot of the symptoms. Feel like I'm drifting away from a lot of my better mates too. The majority of my friends are creative types but with that seems to come lots of self destruction and so they're still very much into their drugs and heavy drinking. I realised a while ago the drink wasn't doing my any good but would still mess about with drugs now and then. Should really stop the lot but it's hard when I'm around it almost every time I socialise. Not that any of my mates are pushers but it's hard to say no. I also seem to have become everyone's agony aunt and a lot of time spent with friends these days seems to lead to them just moaning at me about their lives, jobs and the like. It just makes me want to stay in. Before I'd be looking forward to finishing the working week and catching up with pals, now it feels like I'm always making excuses to do anything but.

 

My relationship with my family is still very poor. I was always kinda the black sheep but it wasn't until my dad died and I slipped into a deep depression that family life became pretty shit. I still feel a sense of shame and embarrassment that they, my mum in paticular, saw me so low and useless. My mum is 63 now and all I really wanna do is have a proper relationship with her as she's a fucking superstar and deserves to know it but I feel anxious and on the brink of tears anytime I go to tell her anything like that. I know I should probably just get it over with but it's hard. I can't remember exactly how long I spoke to various professionals about my depression but it was at least a couple of times a month for over a year, just like I can't remember 99% of the stuff we talked about in the sessions either, but I'm thinking of giving it another go. Should really do it sooner than lately but I put if off every week

 

Got in touch with an ex recently too. It's been two years now but there's still a lot of her shit at my mums' that I messaged her about collecting. I also really wanted to know how she was doing because she has had her fair share of rough patches from a very young age and is coming into the final year of her degree and I wanted to know how that was working out for her but she totally ignored all the personal stuff and we just discussed arranging a meet to exchange stuff. Bit of a bummer really.

Incredibly close to the way I am with my friends bud, kicked the weed when I was 15 coz of the anxiety and paranoia but all my mates base there days around it 

[Carvalho Diablo]

Feel very uncomfortable, very much like an interloper whenever I take a look in here. The subject matter is very alien to me, can't begin to imagine what you're feeling tbh.

 

I count myself lucky.

[Champ]

Feel very uncomfortable, very much like an interloper whenever I take a look in here. The subject matter is very alien to me, can't begin to imagine what you're feeling tbh.

 

I count myself lucky.

 

Why uncomfortable?

[Champ]

Where do you start? How do you even begin to type out the pain of losing someone who had barely started life and it ended with years of such sadness, that sounds so selfish. My heart is breaking for my friend, and hurting so badly for the pain of a young teenage girl who felt that it was the only way to ease her pain. 

 

 

 

 

Fucking bastard twatting shitty cuntting crumbling system. While I'm at it fuck natural beauty, that cunting bridge needs something there to make it impossible to jump from. 

 

I just wanted to acknowledge your post but I have no idea what to say. So sorry x

[Sheeks]

I'm sorry to have brought up painful memories Melons and I do believe the system is shite; a lot of time people suffering will be prescribed something just so the docs can move onto the next patient and get another pay check.  I think one of the reasons it hit me so much was because the shit the had me on made me somewhat emotionless about anything 

[Champ]

I'm sorry to have brought up painful memories Melons and I do believe the system is shite; a lot of time people suffering will be prescribed something just so the docs can move onto the next patient and get another pay check.  I think one of the reasons it hit me so much was because the shit the had me on made me somewhat emotionless about anything 

 

What have you got planned for your day, Sheeks?

[Sheeks]

What have you got planned for your day, Sheeks?

Not much bud, one year anniversary mass for my mate (Irish thing) just reminisce then and watch the second half of band of brothers again ha! 

[Champ]

Not much bud, one year anniversary mass for my mate (Irish thing) just reminisce then and watch the second half of band of brothers again ha! 

 

Its your birthday too, is it not? Toast your mate and life

[Sheeks]

Its your birthday too, is it not? Toast your mate and life

Ha sure is, but sometimes there are more important things take over

[Sheeks]

I knew the GF would remember my Birthday!!

[Champ]

 

I knew the GF would remember my Birthday!!

 

*disappears for a minute...*

[AngryOfTuebrook]

Depression is like being in the deep end of the pool and not really knowing how to swim, so you struggle to keep your head above water. Some days are good, some days are tougher.

 

The pills are like water wings that can help you keep your head above the surface.

 

Talking to a therapist is how you learn how to swim.

Didn't you get kicked out for heavy petting?

[AngryOfTuebrook]

Ha sure is, but sometimes there are more important things take over

Champ knows!

 

Do as your bid and take the time to celebrate yourself.

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Edit] Did that sound a bit too masturbatory?